2003-11-17 - 3:10 p.m.
It's been a sad,sad week. I did get closer to Natalie though which makes me super excited. Tony is a liar,Anthony is a liar & I think I am going to marry Bernacki.
Even though the week was shitty,you can't beat a Sunday afternoon in your brand new jammies & a "Queer Eye" marathon. Seriously,this is quickly becoming my favorite show. It is so funny. I need a gay boyfriend. I love gay boys. I love Kyan from "Queer Eye".
He is an uber fox.*Sigh*. God Bless the Fab Five.
So Friday night me & Natalie stayed up all night & talked . I've told her things only Nick knows about. I'm glad she knows. Now,I have nothing to hide. She thinks me & Bernacki would be really cute together. I think so too. I'm just afraid because I know if we spend time together it will get serious quick. I called it quits with Anthony. The whole thing just seemed so blah. I need way more excitement than he was offering.
I told Natalie what happened between Me & Tony. She got mad at Tony.She was upset because she didn't know what he told me. I told her all the things boys say to get you in bed. He didn't have to lie. I would have fucked him anyway. It's ok though. I'm not upset.I also told her about his small penis. She thought that was pretty funny.
So maybe I am selfish. Sometimes I suffer from Princess syndrome. So fucking what. I've earned everything I own. I've earned everything that makes me awesome. I am good to people who deserve it. I know this in my heart. I am an asshole to assholes.So that's it. That' my life lately. Who knows what will happen next.
I just have to wait & see.
