2003-11-24 - 8:49 p.m.
Toya-
I hope you aren't pissed. I wasn't sure if Armando would come pick you up. Right after I got off the phone with you Tony finally called us. We went to the party. It was ok. I'm sorry that we couldn't hang out. It's just that I don't drive. I always have to rely on someone else. I feel shitty. I really did want us to hang out & that's not me just being polite.
So,Anthony & I are no longer label-less. Here's where it gets messy. Bernacki hates me b/c he thought we were suppose to be together. I'll start from the beginning.
Friday I went to Anthony's house. He was having a party & Natalie & I went out there after we went downtown. So,blah blah blah we make it official. Not only that,he tells me he loves me.
So...
Saturday Tony invites us to a party. When we get there he acts all weird towards me. He acts all hurt b/c he says that I never called him.Whatever. Then I meet his friend Jayc(pronounced Jake). So,from the time I meet him he is constantly around me. I didn't mind. He seemed really cool.Well he is. He is convinced that I'm his soul mate. We were making out all night. I'm bad,I know. I wish I could go into detail but the truth is,the whole night was weird. I dunno.I also met another guy named Dustin. Were probably hanging out tomorrow & that is so wrong b/c I am going to be with Anthony tomorrow too.
Natalie & I joke about my 4 boyfriends. I doubt anything is going to happen between me & Jayc. He has a gf. He seemed weird on the phone Sunday & well it's just not that important.Not only that. I ran into Pablo today & damn he's fine. He told me he lost my number. I told him that's his problem he wasn't gettin it again. That was awesome.So,yea. Saturday we went to Bernacki's after tony's party. He seemed weird. He was pissing me off. He only got mad at me when I wouldn't fool around with him. I just couldn't. I blurted out that I have a bf & it pissed him off big time.It was an accident. I didn't want to tell him like that. I was just tired & wanted to sleep.Oh well. I'm young & shit happens. I don't know. It is completely selfish & I know that if I continue to act like this it will blow up in my face.I just can't seem to care for some reason. I'm just going to see what happens.
One Love.
