2004-02-19 - 2:01 a.m.
Valentine's Day & my Birthday are now just vague memories. Anthony got me roses. Later on that night I was forced to break up with him in a dramatic way. It was so out of character for me. Jason recieved his Valentine & absolutely loved it.It made me so happy.
I went out to dinner with Brooke & my mom for my Birthday. It was really nice. I had two martinis. They sang the "Happy Birthday" songlike they do. I had been at Brooke's house for 6 days.It was great.Even though things had potential to be catastrophic,they weren't I was surronded by love.
Brooke left little post-its with messages on them all over our room before she went to school. I love her. Love her.Everyone called me & it was pleasant.Anthony called me.We made civil chatter. I dunno. I might be over that.It's too much. Even though Jason isn't mine I get to carry little things around to know that he's always there.Anthony hasn't given me much but back & forth. I used to love the push & pull. I think I've grown out of that.
Right now I'm listening to the CD Brooke got me. Maroon5. Shut-up. There are some good love songs on here. If anyone knows methey know I am a sucker for love songs. Brooke knows that,Jason knows that.
I'm glad I know them.
One Love.
