2004-04-02 - 3:48 p.m.
Sometimes I think about the things that I do & say ..I realize how I am regressing from how I used to be. It's pretty much out of frustration.
I don't like it. It's not who I am . I hate being loud & saying the things that I do at times. I just can't help it. I want to be by myself. I kinda do. I'm not sad. I don't think I'm depressed I just prefer the company of myself than that of others. I'm not sure why.I'm pretty sure I don't care to investigate that. Yes,I have friends & I enjoy their company.It would be better if no outside parties interfered with that. I would be specific & say who I mean but then I'd just be a hypocrite. I've fallen victim to the "outsider". It's not that I want to cut myself off completely. Well,I know that's what will happen. I dunno. I am bad when it comes to revenge & getting even. I mean it doesn't have to be that serious. It's not like I plan on running away.
Oh wait,that's exactly what I plan on doing.
One Love.
