2004-06-18 - 3:08 a.m.
It's been a really long time since i've written. Where to start. I've been really tired a lot lately. I'm getting used to it though. I've lost & gained a few freinds. Same goes with weight.
I'm feeling excited & sad all at the same times,all the time. I've been bad. Yea that kinda bad.
Something that jason told me ripped apart my insides. I had to make a huge decision & I am a better person for it. My forgiveness is waning & it has been so long that I have forgiven someone that made me cry. I haven't done much of that. I'm proud of me. I feel good. I still worry. Especially since I have been surprising myself lately. It's beautiful Sometimes I don't reconize who I am. I'm waiting for Jason. Just a few days now. I'm antsy & nervous.
I've finally started looking out for myself.
There is no turning back from that.
One Love.
