2005-10-24 - 5:26 p.m.
I woke up this morning feeling the worst I think I've ever felt. What was different from today was usually the bad feelings go away. It didn't. I had it all day. I really have nothing to live for. Nobody means anything. When you feel your absolute worst,there is no one to go to. Absolutely no one. You're left to stew in your own anguish. I have carried around the hugest knot in my stomach.There can't be a succesion of good things. There can't be a string of good things. You have to trade one thing in for another. I have before. I won't anymore. Everything is lost to me. This is me officially giving up.
One Love.
