2006-08-03 - 12:16 p.m.
I haven't written in here for forever. It's strange. I was reading a lot of my old diaries & well I like them. I thought I'd be ashamed of all the things that I wrote but I wasn't. I just well I don't know. It just was nice. The style I liked the most. I was nuts then. Always honest though. Of course I think my writing has matured a little.
Something is trying to convince me to go back to my old ways. I am exicted & afraid all at the same time. I can write here that a few months ago I lost the best job that I ever had. It put me in a pretty low place. I haven't reached the top yet ,but I'm digging my hands & heels in. I'm struggling. I am fighting. It's not fucking easy. i can't give up though. I've actually come really far. I just need more progression. That is going to take awhile to obtain.
This school venture is driving me nuts. I'm a nervous wreck. I just want to excell. I just want some success I can call my own. Something to be proud about. That's it. That's all. That's my life.
One Love.
P.S. Did you miss me?
